Angels

[edited @ 3.20pm]
I was tired... more like exhausted last night, went to bed at 10pm, but couldnt sleep, got up and went back to bed few times, still unable to sleep, but i was exhausted. Doesn't quite make sense, i had no energy to even walk to the front door of my house yet i couldn't sleep, and i had a good 6hour sleep the night before, i didn't do any sports or exercises or workouts that evening even. in the end i think i fell asleep at bout 3.30am.

I have some really amazing friends, they're like angels to me. when i had that insane back injury pain, Cat who is so far away kept giving me words of comfort and encouragements, always assured me with the words "it's going to be over soon", "it's gonna end, just tahan awhile more", "it's gonna end soon". those words don't sound too magical, but in my moments of intense and severe back pain those words rang loud in my head and i can only cling on to it like a lifeline. at that point I couldnt see how it could end, but those words rang loud in my head. thanks Cat! thanks to all who prayed for me also and supported me too, Dr. Julian, Jan&Pang(very dear friends), James, Cord, Grace, Page, Jen, Dr. Basel, Dr. Kim, amazing ppl, the list goes on and on, sorry if ur name not here ah, doesnt mean ur the least, not at all! Also that Guardian Angel who looks after me =)

Some don't even know me well yet cared for me, one friend bought me medicated oil for back rub, another who found out wanted to treat me to a back massage! (i didn't go tho, paiseh lah), all the prayers, sms, some friends gave me chocs, another gave me sushi! when i was craving for it! the Amazing thing is this friend is my student's Mom, take note that her son and her are NOT in FB, but that morning when i posted that i was craving for sushi in FB, that very afternoon when she came by to pick up her son after drum lessons she gave me a box of sushi... walau... unbelievable! Grace, thanks for your cards! so inspirational and encouraging! Sze made cupcakes (i lurveeee em so much!) and then wanted to come to my house deliver the cupcakes to me (but i wasn't home). Just out of the blues bake cupcakes and deliver to me some more! then after that go back to Sg. like... i cannot understand lor such kindness and goodness, what I can understand is God is good!

So many challenges and setbacks and a string of unfortunate events, frustrations and all that would have turned me into one of these..


but then God sends His angels to touch me and show me His love, so amazing, unconditional, I cannot understand. who can fathom, the depths of His love. So many things in my mind. If i murdered or did something horrible to someone today, even if intentionally, i wonder if i'd still have these wonderful angels by my side. I for one, will never be able to be such an angel, as much as humans have great capacity for good works, there's also capacity for evil. As good as one can be, there's still a judgmental nature in our minds whether we're conscious of it or not. most often, not. it comes so naturally to judge someone who did wrong, a criminal, an offender, i'm so often guilty of that, yet I wish for someone that will listen and that will not be judgemental. I never fail to be amazed and touched by the story of the Prodigal Son. His Father's love so amazing, NOT judgmental, not condemning even after all the wrong the son has done. I'm amazed by those who are in prison ministry, who can still love the criminal and find redemptive value in each of those criminals and show love to them. such are Angels sent by God.

Yesterday I didnt feel like eating lunch, so didn't get myself anything for lunch. The same morning i read some devotional that says that I'm under God's favor, and "His favor rains down on you like dew on the grass every morning!". After lunch hour ended i came back to office and saw a McD Set meal on my Desk!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD... HOW AWESOME YOUR NAME IN ALL THE EARTH!@!!!@!!! my colleagues told me somebody gave it to me!!! .....

A quick and brief search for the word Angel from the web got me these results, here's an excerpt:
Angels - (a) In the widest sense they are agents of God's providence (Ex. 12:23; Ps. 104:4; Heb. 11:28; 1 Cor. 10:10; 2 Sam. 24:16; 1 Chr. 21:16; 2 Kings 19:35; Acts 12:23). (b) They are specially God's agents in carrying on his great work of redemption.

THere's a "higher level" of "angels" I'd like to address and thank, those who supported and encouraged me by being anonymous. words really cannot describe lah. You're really like Angels in heavenly beings that are God's agents of providence but are never seen or heard, no names, nothing. just Blessing and portraying God's love thru tangible and intangible things.