Flying TImes

so much has happened for the last few weeks, a friend passed away, another friend got diagnosed of having bone cancer and he's only 19yrs old, went to penang, went to KL, bad times and good times, things changes, situation changes, Cinny will be going back to US this friday, i'm feeling sad already, i'm gonna miss her, she helped me so much during her summer break, helped me face reality, helped me to go through hard times and very importantly helped me stand back up on my feet. thanks so much dear =) also thanks to all my lovely friends who helped me rise again, special thanks to Julian for being my close buddy and brother, for lending me a shoulder to cry on, but i still won't hug you =P

This morning i woke up with the gentle Holy Spirit counselling me and assuring me that no matter how real and depressing reality can be, there's a reality that GOd never changes, He will never leave me nor forsake me, He will guide me, lead me through, sustain me, He's my fortress and shield, He'll protect me, always has and always will, He loves me so much, more than words can describe!

here's my prayer to You my Saviour, love of my soul

Thank You, my loving sovereign God, that even the ways I fail and make mistakes are part of the "all things" that You work together for good.... that my tensions and stresses, my hostile and anxious feelings, my failures and regrets, my trips into shame and self-blame - and the specific things that trigger these - can contribute to my spiritual growth and my experience of You.

I rejoice that these things keep reminding me to depend on You with all my heart.... that they prompt me to trust in Your love, Your forgiveness, Your power, Your sufficiency, Your ability to overrule, and Your transforming presence within me.... Thank You for the ways my shortcomings and failures bring pressure on me to open myself to You more fully, and let You show me deep hidden needs.... griefs and hurts that I've never poured out before to You, that I've never exposed to Your healing touch.... and sins that I've never faced and acknowledged. How grateful I am for Your constant cleansing as I confess each sin You make me aware of, and then turn back to You as my Lord. I praise You that I'm free from condemnation simply because Christ died for me and rose again.... that it doesn't depend on how good a life i live.

I praise You for how You use my sins and failures to humble me.... and for how t his opens me to the inflow of Your grace.... amazing grace, that enables me to hold my head high, not in pride but in humble gratitude for Your undeserved, unchanging love and total cleansing!

Amen.


oh had a great time in Singapore too! with Cinny and Yean Yik =D
i sold off a guitar to get another guitar and a digicam! =D God is so good!
will post pics soon. erm or later hehehee